I don´t want anything else, than be allowed to love you. I miss you. It feels like nothing can make me the same again. I know i´ll be find, but right now, I can´t see when. I love you, and I want to tell you that I can wait for you, I would really wait forever! But that would make me look weak, I don´t want to be that person, who need someone else to be able to be happy. I want to be the person I was before you. Strong, independent, happy and open minded. But it´ll never be the same. Though there are things that hurts, I don´t regret anything. You should know that, yes I am hurt as hell, but yet, I still love you. And I think i´ll always do that...

I want to scream - I´ll do anything!! I meen that, I would do anything to make you love me again. You were the best I could ever wish for! I still hope that you´ll change your mind, but I need to convince myself that it´s over. It was great, but now - we´ll forever be friends.
I wish I could think that´s enough, but I can´t help it, I want to be yours, and I want it to be like it was.

It´s terrible, I let myself become so in love. Now I pay the consequences... It´s sick, but I can´t hide you the truth. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. And I can´t understand how it could be like this. When will I ever learn? I can´t help it, and I´m sorry - but I love you!
And fuck you for what you did!