I wish I could read your mind. I wish that I could change them. But I can´t... All there´s left for me to do, is to take care of myself. I´ll simple have to go on. It´s hard to pretend in front of others, but even harder to convince myself when I´m alone. It´s over and I know I´ll get over it, like you said - I´ll find something else, maby even something better.
But what hurts the most is that I liked you. This was the first time I really enjoyed, beeing in a relationship.
I can´t blame you though. You were true to me, all the time, and you did the right thing. But like I said, it hurts.

I hope and I still wish. If I could do anything to make you change your mind, I´d do that. If you don´t want to know this, don´t read it, but I need to write it. I don´t want you to feel worse than you already do, but I can´t hold this to myself.

The truth is that I was in love with you. I really let myself love you, and I thought we could be great! We were, for a while, but not anymore, and that´s what hurts me. That I hoped and dreamed of something that was so close to me, but slipped through my fingers, right in front of my eyes. I couldn´t stop it, but I suppose this wasn´t right, not meant to be. Unrequited love, that´s what this is. It has happend to others before, they´ve come through it, why should´nt I manage to?

I will do this! I´ll make it!
But I can´t deny,
that every time I think about you I remember the look you gave me, just before you said you love me, for the first time. Every time I think about you I miss you, and I feel the tears explode behind my eyes and I can never hold them back. I don´t want people to thing that you treated me badly, because you didn´t! But when I think of you, and what we could have had, tomorrow, I can´t fight my feelings. 

I was so in love with you, and now I´ll have to go one. Make it on my own, again ...