I woke up, froose my as of on my way to school and went home after an hour there. But it´s a great day! I know you read this, and I know that you think I don´t have anything to say thank you for, but I have.
You have given me the opportunity to take another step, towards my goal. I know what I aim for, and this will help me get there. It may be a small one, but it really is a step. You helped me make it, and that I´ll say thank you for.

The best thing about this day is, that it´s not over. I´ll meet my freinds tonight, and even thought it´s cold as hell outside, I´m warm inside. Thank you for this day!

Now, it´s over. For real, nothing happend so now - I´m over you. I´m not going to waste more time on you. We´re now an ended chapter. It´s never going to be something between you and me again, I´m done with you.

One last time. This is your last chance. Think about it, now or never. Take it or leave it.

I know you´ll read this, so I just wanted to say I´m sorry..
I admit that I´m just .. sad. Sad becuse you left me when I like you as much as I did.
But that doesn´t give me the permission to do what I did yesterday. I´m sorry for being such a bitch. My only explanation is that I was sad. I am sorry.

I keep staring at my phone, I keep hoping and I´m still waiting. But for what? For someone who isn´t in love with me anymore, someone who´s to young, to immature and to wrong! That´s not making any sense.. I don´t know why Í keep doing this, I have a reason, but I can´t explane it. I´m in love with you, but i have absolutly no idea why! I want to go one, leave you behind. Beacuse you´re not worth this. You did what you had to, when you saw were it was going, you did the right thing. But it was to late ... You should have been sure before you desided to hurt me. Beacuse that´s what you did. Hurt me.
This text isn´t about me, being mad. It´s about me, moving on. That´s what I´ll try to do, I´m moving on!
But..


..If only you, would know me better
If only you would see me better
Set me free, before you press delete
If only you
could see that I'm burning
if only you
would know how I'm hurting

I don´t want this! But I can´t help it, I´m really trying here! Trying not to call you, trying not to break apart. I don´t know what happend, but right now I want you! I´ve desided to move on, and I will. But right know, it´s hard.
I can´t believe how I could let this happen! How stupid was I?! I was stronger then this, this isn´t me!
You destroyed me!

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

It´s so cold! I could blame the season "it´s the grey time of the year..!"
But I know it wouldn´t be this cold, if you were still here ...

I sit here wraped in a blanket, trying to get warm again. And I´m on my way! The heat´s on and I´ll light some candles. I´m on my way to get warm again, and I´m proud. I seem to make it after all. I´m on my way to get warm again, after you. I know I´ll fall back sometimes, but I think I´ll be fine ...

After all, the winter´s coming. But something tells me that woun´t be as bad as I feared.
I´m on my way to get better, just so you know.
My friend
  


 

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie its true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

...I finally know just what it means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home
Here and now, this I vow

...Yes I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

You said, "I would do anything to be able to call you my girlfriend!"
Then you made me love you, just by a moment, I was there. I thought it would be a lot harder, but it didn´t take me long, to fall in love with you. Now I can´t find my way back...
I don´t know what happend. I don´t know why you suddenly changed you mind about what you wanted to call me. I still don´t know what happend..! All I know is that I miss what could have been.
I know there´s a big diffentens between you and me. We pretty much don´t have the same friends and I would simpley say we are very different, ubviously. But still I was, and still am, in love with you.
There were something special about you. When there was a "you and me" I thought it was right. Something between us feelt very ment to be. But I guess I was wrong ... I guess I´m holding on to what I hoped for. I think I love someone who isn´t there. Someone who lost himself somewhere between summer and fall.
I´m now starting to believe in what you said. Maby you where telling me the truth?
Maby, you thought you were ready, but you got scared? Maby you tried and wanted everything you told me, but I got to close? Maby you were just not ready? Just like you said ....

Even if I´ve got that into my head by now, the pain doesn´t go away. I still love you just as much. I love the wrong person, to bad for me. I should never had released my barriers, not for you, you were not ready, you were to young.

I don´t understand why people are laughing anymore, nothing´s funny!
For the first time, I really do feel like Carrie did, when Big left her at the wedding. And just like her, I ask myself "Will I ever laugh again?"

I know what I have to do. I know I´ll have to learn how to go on... But right now, I can´t. I miss you and I want ous to be like we were. Usually I would be happy by now and joke around, but I´m not. Tonight I´m staying home, I don´t want to go out. If everything would be normal, I would think about someone else right now ... I would think about him and the way he sings and the way he smiles. But I don´t. All I can think about is you. I can´t go on, because I am still in love with you. It´s terrible, because I´m not myself. I´ve never been like this, in love for to long. But I don´t know what I can do to feel better. I want to talk to you but I think I´ve done that enough. You know everything and I have nothing more to tell you. The only thing I havn´t done, is to cry and beg.
But i won´t do that! That is to go far!
If I would ever do that, that proves I´ve simple lost it. If I ever do that, put me into a hospital!
But that doesn´t feel to far away ... 


Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before but that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you, baby
If I ain't got you, baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him

Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you, baby
If I ain't got you, baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you, baby
If I ain't got you, baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me, baby
Said nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me, baby

I can´t stop these tears from falling down my face

I wish I could read your mind. I wish that I could change them. But I can´t... All there´s left for me to do, is to take care of myself. I´ll simple have to go on. It´s hard to pretend in front of others, but even harder to convince myself when I´m alone. It´s over and I know I´ll get over it, like you said - I´ll find something else, maby even something better.
But what hurts the most is that I liked you. This was the first time I really enjoyed, beeing in a relationship.
I can´t blame you though. You were true to me, all the time, and you did the right thing. But like I said, it hurts.

I hope and I still wish. If I could do anything to make you change your mind, I´d do that. If you don´t want to know this, don´t read it, but I need to write it. I don´t want you to feel worse than you already do, but I can´t hold this to myself.

The truth is that I was in love with you. I really let myself love you, and I thought we could be great! We were, for a while, but not anymore, and that´s what hurts me. That I hoped and dreamed of something that was so close to me, but slipped through my fingers, right in front of my eyes. I couldn´t stop it, but I suppose this wasn´t right, not meant to be. Unrequited love, that´s what this is. It has happend to others before, they´ve come through it, why should´nt I manage to?

I will do this! I´ll make it!
But I can´t deny,
that every time I think about you I remember the look you gave me, just before you said you love me, for the first time. Every time I think about you I miss you, and I feel the tears explode behind my eyes and I can never hold them back. I don´t want people to thing that you treated me badly, because you didn´t! But when I think of you, and what we could have had, tomorrow, I can´t fight my feelings. 

I was so in love with you, and now I´ll have to go one. Make it on my own, again ...

Why is it that all of a sudden, every song I hear is about you?
If I lose you in my thoughts for just a second, a song comes up on the radio, and boom, you´re back in my head again. I hate to be this vulnerable! You must have been really special, for me to feel this way. We are still friends and thank God for that! But I can´t lie, it is hard! And some song, makes it even harder.





I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
I think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, was my drug

There´s a special man in my life. He´s not like a lover or a friend and I can´t find the right expression for him. But he was there for me when I needed someone. Not only did he thought me everything I know about music and english, but he also thought me somethings about myself. He thought me that I´m strong and I can do anything. He believed in me and pushed me to chase after my dreams.
I went to see him today. I don´t know if you read this, but I just want you to know that you meen to me.
This may sound strange for some ears, but I thing that in some way, I love him.
He was my english teacher, but I saw him as something more. I believe he was a friend of mine!

I don´t want anything else, than be allowed to love you. I miss you. It feels like nothing can make me the same again. I know i´ll be find, but right now, I can´t see when. I love you, and I want to tell you that I can wait for you, I would really wait forever! But that would make me look weak, I don´t want to be that person, who need someone else to be able to be happy. I want to be the person I was before you. Strong, independent, happy and open minded. But it´ll never be the same. Though there are things that hurts, I don´t regret anything. You should know that, yes I am hurt as hell, but yet, I still love you. And I think i´ll always do that...

I want to scream - I´ll do anything!! I meen that, I would do anything to make you love me again. You were the best I could ever wish for! I still hope that you´ll change your mind, but I need to convince myself that it´s over. It was great, but now - we´ll forever be friends.
I wish I could think that´s enough, but I can´t help it, I want to be yours, and I want it to be like it was.

It´s terrible, I let myself become so in love. Now I pay the consequences... It´s sick, but I can´t hide you the truth. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. And I can´t understand how it could be like this. When will I ever learn? I can´t help it, and I´m sorry - but I love you!
And fuck you for what you did!

I hope this´ll be okey. I just want you to know, before tomorrow, that I´m in love with you, I want you and I love you. I don´t want this to end, what I want is you. I want you to hold me like you did, look at me like you did, and kiss me like you used to.

I don´t remember why we are fighting
So both of us are Mad for nothing
Fighting for nothing
But I don´t want to go to bed, Mad at you
And I don´t want you to go to bed, Mad at me

I wright because I can´t talk. Because you woun´t let me talk to you. You don´t have time to see me, or call, or send me a text message, so what can I do? I have done what I can to get to you, now it´s your turn. But just so you know, I haven´t given up on us yet, but you don´t have much time left ...

Hey, slow it down
What do you want from me
What do you want from me
Yeah, I’m afraid
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn’t give a damn
But now here we are
So what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see
that baby you’re beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
It’s me – I’m a freak
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try but I think
you could save my life

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Just don’t give up on me
I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

So
Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
whataya want from me

I don´t know what´s wrong. I just know I want to love, and be loved back. Sometimes I doubt .. Sometimes I need to get things without asking for them. I will give them back, but I need to hear you say that you love me, because I don´t feel very well right now. I am not the best me right now, and there for, I need you the most. Can you be there? I miss you <3